On the edge....

Do you ever get the feeling that you're just on the edge of something amazing? Like you've waited and visualized and hoped and dreamed and that whatever it is might just be right around the corner? That's how I've felt the past couple of weeks.

It started when my box arrived from Wooden Shoe Tulip Farm. Remember back in the spring when I went to the local tulip festival and walked amongst the acres and acres of gorgeous tulip blooms? It was significant because up to that point I didn't do stuff like that...not alone anyway. If my guys didn't want to go somewhere, I didn't go. Like there was some rule that said I couldn't go somewhere without them. But that day last spring I went and I had a great time with myself and it was kind of this breakthrough moment of realizing I didn't need anyone's permission to have fun on my own terms.

So this week I planted my tulip bulbs in the front yard and thought about how far I've come in a few short months. I pondered the significance of tulip bulbs in relation to my new obsession with winter and spring, death and new life, Hades and Persephone. I thought about Shelby in Steel Magnolias and her very distinct shades of Blush and Bashful - because in the spring my three varieties of tulips will explode in three very distinct shades of Red - First Impression, Attila Graffiti , and Kingsblood.

That was the extension of my observance of the Fall Equinox - I didn't even open my copy of the Celtic Devotional. But planting bulbs felt like enough.

One reason why it feels like something of significance is about to explode is that a couple of cool things happened this week. One is that I met a new friend - another warrior named Kelli who is helping set up a local chapter of a Life Makeover Group - An invention of one of my favorite authors - Cheryl Richardson. I belonged to a LMO Group a few years ago and that collection of girlfriends led, I believe, to some significant life changes on my part. In the wake of my recent declaring to the universe that I was finally realizing my own solitary existence and my need for female relationships, I think its pretty cool that her life made way for her to reach out to me at just the right time.

We met at "my" local coffee shop and  2 1/2 hours sped by as we talked about where we are in our lives and found we are on the same page on many levels. She has, of course, read Cheryl Richardson, but has also been introducing Mama Gena's pleasure principles into her life and ran into Persephone and Demeter when she read "Traveling with Pomegranates" earlier this year.

 In the same vein, I had signed up at GirlfriendCircles.com a while back and this same week they set me up with a "Connecting Circle" - scheduled for the day after my family gets back from a quick trip to Vegas. So, tomorrow I'm meeting Kelli and another women in our first official LMO group meeting where we'll decide how to best support each other through whatever life is bringing next. Then, next Wednesday I'll have a "girl's night out" with some total strangers at a cafe in Beaverton.  Ask and it is given.  Perhaps soon the page in my vision book that is filled with photos of women laughing and relating and "friending" will be filled with real pictures of people I actually know.

The other cool thing is that Thursday, on the first day of Fall and under the power of that powerful Aries full moon, I finally got the ovaries to ask my bosses' wife how I can help her finally get her antiques and collectible gift shop open. She said my timing was perfect and that she had just decided that week to finally get the ball rolling. So, I went over to her shop, worked it out with my boss that I'll work half days for him and half days for her and came home with 4 antique doors in my van to paint and antique. My purpose, other than just being a friend and providing the extra warm body and set of hands she needs, is that when she is open, I will have an outlet for my own artwork and antiques! I am so excited I can hardly breathe through the "squueeeeee" of excitement coming out of my chest.

On top of all that, this week we're getting ready for our trip to the great L.V. - with kids no less - centered around a pre-season hockey game and a trip to Hoover dam. Much to do and lots of excitement to go around. Am realizing there will be no room for procrastination or dis-organization starting now.....

The universe is conspiring......can't wait to see what it comes up with.

Having the Reddest Day Ever!

In Grace,

kell