So, I've had a life epiphany. Just now, this morning as I sat in my sweaty gym clothes watching 3 back to back rerun episodes of Super Nanny. (Besides the fact that actually watching tv-as-it-happens instead of a DVR'd version brought home the fact that tv is a giant cluster-f@#$ing waste of time because of all the commercials.)
The other day on a sunny evening walk with my husband, I admitted to him that I get frustrated with my Self for not knowing how to be organized. I have so many hats, so many roles to juggle that, while I manage to keep the balls in the air, I don't necessarily do any of them very well. There is just seemingly not enough time in the day to get some of everything in to the point that any of it feels like its being adequately taken care of - so I end up feeling fairly mediocre at everything. I have traditionally been a list maker - but my to-do lists always end being these impossible gigantic tools of frustration. I have tried day planners and calendars but I always end up scheduling everything down to the minute and things get messed up in the transitions. So, lately it seems like I have this giant cloud around my head filled with all the different things that need doing, with no specific time set for when I will do them.
This is the reason I found myself in front of the tv this morning even though there were a million better options to be, do, or have.
Enter JoJo the Super Nanny. She took 3 completely out of control, dysfunctional, chaotic families and gave them the tools to fix themselves. The number one thing she said to all of them....establish a routine. She made big bright colorful charts of the step by step process the children needed to do to calmly get out the door in the morning. She had parents fill in the blanks on poster sized hourly schedules regarding when meals were served, babies were fed, naps were taken, toys were picked up, etc.
That's my epiphany.That's what I need. Not a blackberry with microscopic fields you can hardly see. Not a day planner with detailed spaces for minute by minute scheduling. I need a gigantic, poster sized, colorful wall chart with stickers and movable happy faces! I need a "first you do this, then you do this" lesson plan and I need it staring me in the face every morning. I want a routine. I long for order. I want to get up in the morning and know exactly what I will do when because it is exactly what I did yesterday.
You steadfast 9 to 5-ers probably think I'm crazy or lazy or both. I get it. I also get that spontaneity is a beautiful thing and that I need to allow it. But lack of structure is not working and I need to get me some. Complete with Magic Markers, glitter pens and glow in the dark stickers.On a Red poster board, of course.
Join me at Office Depot anyone?
In Grace,
Kell
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